To the ones who don’t know… It’s not that you’re slow, but you let this guy take a piece of your soul and fill it up with his intentions and plant it right there… into your ovaries for 9 months of conception. Are you feeling lost? Lonely? Do you sometimes feel as if you gave your goods to a dog like a piece of balognie? And you ask yourself.. how could that sweet loving bliss turn into something like this?
When the world and everything in it walked away from you, the sky turned blue. You accumulated your tears in a bucket as the neighbors watched the rain wash their window looking at the sky of blue thunder, while you’re trying to knock out the sounds of your emotions like we do when the Jehova’s Witness arrives… who did you tell when you felt deprived?
Sometimes I wish I could of just scooped up your pile of tears and told you listen to your spirit when you got weak, and just use it as purification for your face, because what breaks you can only make you. Sometimes I wish I could of replaced your hands with mine and sketched that outfit you said you couldn’t make come to life and paint those pictures of who really loves you. Sometimes wish I could of caught you three months before you turned 16, because if I did… on August 26th the doctors wouldn’t have to hear you scream.
I know right now your soul is aching when it plays the piano in the dark. You collab with those creatures whom we are afraid of when they come out in the dark. But you make a BEAUTIFULLLL melody. If you were to play Beethoven in the dark, those graceful hands would touch the souls of those who were antisematic. Your like a lantern in dark uniting those lost souls, locking hands and singing: “This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, I’m gonna let it shine…”
With the 2 inches of body fat you used to pinch and label gut has how turned into 37 weeks of a mother and baby in development. You need to now find happiness within the man upstairs as your walking through the judgments of people from different points of view and laughing with those who aren’t true.
In 3 weeks, your baby is going to be here. But 205 days ago when that test came positive you were about to say no. As a mother, you gotta be the hawk for your family and it’s needs. I’m not saying all men are perfect, but when things not goin’ right you need to have your soul in place and use the skin from the Holy Bible as protection and mix those pages of wisdom with the cerebral fluid in your brain and store it like you would for your baby’s umbilical cord. B/c you may never know when your gonna need it.
Your time is almost up mami, keep the systolic 120 and the dialostic 80. Less complications for you and your baby. Congradulations!
